Saturday, March 15, 2014

A Tanzanian 27th

I’ve always felt that celebrating a birthday in a different country makes that birthday special for mere geographical reasons.  It’s a good thing that this is my perspective, too, as I turned 20 in Ukraine, 21 in Ghana and now 27 (eeeekkkk) in Tanzania.  As I mentioned on Facebook and have tried to express to each family member and friend who took the time to send me an email, card, voicemail, text message or like, a birthday note means that much more on your birthday when you are away from home and the effortlessly familiar.  Take it from one who has been around this block a few times.  So, many, many thanks to all those who thought of me on the 5th, including Mike and his hilarious Skype video voicemail, Ashley and Bean and their eCards, JaLissa and her personalized rendition of my grandpa’s famous birthday song and the many emails, texts and Facebook messages. XOXO to each of you!

My day in Tanzania was a nice, quiet, Wednesday.  As it turns out, my beloved somewhere-between-my-mom-and-older-sister Teddy went into the hospital to deliver her newest daughter on the 4th.  I was truly hoping Shamila would wait until the 5th to put in appearance so we could be birthday twins; however, Shamila had other plans, which is understandable since she was already two weeks past her scheduled appearance date.  So, at 6:30pm on the 4th, only five and a half hours before my birthday, the beautiful Shamila was born.  As such, Teddy was as she should have been recovering at home with her family instead of working at the hotel on my birthday.  Selfishly, I was bummed because Teddy is such a major part of my experience here and why I love Tanzania so much, but that’s just the way the cookie crumbled. 

However, I got to spend the day with my wonderful kids.  I was overwhelmed with the abundant amount of sweet, homemade cards, pictures and a bracelet (from the precious 5th grader Happy) that I received.  The big smiles and repeating “Happy birthday, Madam” from these amazing kids is enough to make anyone melt.  The entire hotel staff was also extra sweet.  Dean, who I have not yet had a chance to mention, a professional chef from Canada who lives in Florida and is in Tanzania for the month of March to assist in improving the kitchen of the hotel, was kind enough to make me a special birthday dinner: black bean burger with fries and CHOCOLATE MOUSSE.  Let’s get a few things clear: 1) chocolate is one of the most direct ways to my heart, and that mousse was my first taste of chocolate since 2013.  2) I don’t eat black bean burgers in the States, but that bad boy was delicious and such a nice break from the daily mounds and mounds of rice and ugali I have been consuming. 

So, Dean, Inno and I had a nice, delicious dinner together. Mama Shayo even had all of the school staff come to the hotel for a soda to celebrate my birthday. We had to do this the day after my birthday because Wednesday was Ash Wednesday and everyone had to go to church, but it is the thought that counts.  To round out, or rather close out the birthday celebration, Inno and I went to Glaciers on Friday and had a blast.  Those Sex on the Mountains are dangerous, people.  :)  But, all of my Tanzanian friends were there and we had a great time, laughing (mostly at me trying to speak Swahili) and joking together.  Singing, dancing and just enjoying ourselves under the stars against the backdrop of a Tanzanian night was the perfect way to end celebrating my birthday.  I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.  

Post college, I developed the habit of taking a moment to reflect upon my last year as I embark upon another. When I look back at 26, it was quite a year:  I finished up my year as a young principal; unexpectedly, yet miraculously (thanks to the wonderful Andrew E. Hasty) found myself teaching 5th READING, who would have ever seen that coming?, at such a positive, supportive school with the best staff and ever better kids; helped a dear friend get settled in the Big Apple; witnessed two of my close grade school friends get married as well attend the special, Ghanaian wedding of two people who are literally made for each other; oh and let’s not forget, I decided to leave New York, American teaching, my friends and family and move to Tanzania.  And here I am, in Tanzania, where I will spend half of my 27th year.  As 27 unquestionably falls in the category of ‘late twenties’, I did have a few freak out moments on the days surrounding my birthday, as I asked myself: Do I really know what I am doing with my life? 


And the answer is: absolutely not.  But, maybe because I’m crazy or maybe because I’m actually growing up, I have come to peace with that.  I have realized that nobody really has it ‘figured out’.  So, I have decided that instead of stressing about the unknown, what I have (or have not) accomplished thus far in my life or how I match up to what society says I should be doing at this age, I am going to try my absolute level best to simply enjoy each day and fully embrace 27.  Why spend 27 stressing about ‘being this old’ when next year I more than likely would say, Gosh, I just wish I was 27 again so that I could really enjoy it.  I’m sure I’ll have my moments of anxiety like any Type A, OCD, Italian, Irish and Polish female, but hopefully they are fewer and less catastrophic because I am giving my best effort to intentionally living in the here and now and leaving the rest to the big (wo)man upstairs.

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